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Issues…Now what?

cindy246 — Wed, 13 Feb 2008 14:53:39 +0000

Okay….Everyone (experts) say you have to deal with issues that happened in your life to help beat the weight. So for the last several months I have been debated what MY issues are. Lordy there are plenty! So now I have uncovered some issues that might explain my weight gain. So now what do I do. How do you deal with issues that happened in the past so they are no longer issues. One of mine is a bad 7 yr marriage to my ex. He was emotionally abusive. I remember him telling me (not asking but TELLING) me to lose weight and I had got very defensive about it. Mind you he was in prison at the time so I lied to him told him I was losing and in fact I was gaining. I remember thinking “FAT??? You want to see FAT…I’ll show you fat” That is one point in my life I gained alot of weight. Now I think back and say I wasnt fat 150 lbs. Compared to my 260 lbs now. I wasnt FAT. I hate him!! He has been out of my life for 9 years now. He has no clue where I am or even how to track me down. So there is an issue…his emotional abuse.

Now the question is…I have uncovered 1 of my issues, how do I deal with it??? I thought I have dealt with him and what he has done to me emotionally to me. But I guess not specially since I am tearing up writing this and thinking about what I went thru with him. Not only was the weight and issue with him but he has left me with sexual issues that has interferred with my life now with my current husband (going on 9 years of marriage). My ex has scarred my life in so many ways it would take pages to tell everything.

How do I deal with it?? I can think of a couple more issues that might be behind my weight problems. So I uncovered issues…….Now What??????? Any ideas would be great!!

Starting Again

cindy246 — Wed, 13 Feb 2008 13:16:15 +0000

Ok here I go again. (LOL. Like the old Whitesnake song but I’m talking about something different. Boy that song just shows how old I am. LOL) Since I started this site I lost 20 pounds started 270 got to 250. Then along came Halloween (I did ok) then Thanksgiving (again I did ok) Christmas is another story….I am one of those that bakes, bakes, bakes and bakes some more. Family and Friends wait for thier Christmas tin from me. Wait and EXPECT. Specially family since my grandmother can no longer stand and bake cookies and candies I guess its been handed down to me which is fine b/c I LOVE to bake. I also LOVE to eat the fruit of my labor. So I knew I could defeat it so I quit worring about my weight Xmas and of course I gained 10 pounds back. (Now I am at 260) Actually I did better then I thought.

So now I need to start again. We have moved and my gym is no longer 5 minutes away its more like 30 minutes away. My hubby has some kind of work out machine at his work. Sounds likes its kinda like an ellipitcal machine. Then his boss no longer wants and said my hubby can have. Now he just needs to bring home.

No more excuses and I have a pocket full of them. I have plenty I can do in the house for excercise. (I live in Northern Indiana) and its way too cold and snowy to go for walks. But I do have a handful of Leslie Sansone Walk tapes and I also have a stepper for step aerobics. Now this new machine my dh has to bring home.

I need to learn how to eat again. Stop the SWEETS and SODA. My 2 biggest downfalls. I wanted to start a blog for my day to day thoughts. i belong to CafeMom which I love but I ahve to watch what I post because my stepdaughter is on that as well. I dont want to blog something just venting about the stepkids or my dh and have her read it and take it the wrong way, Yet I think I need somewhere to write and get opinions and ecouragment. I had forgotten about this site so here I am.

I have lots to say some about weight issues some about everyday issues that might be holding my weightloss back or the issues might somehow affect my weight or be because of my weight. Therefore, for the next couple days thier are going to be alot of blogs getting all this out. Some will be long. Like this one is turning out to be. So you can read them or not…….Your choice I just need to write.

Thank Ya Thank Ya

No weight loss

cindy246 — Fri, 01 Jun 2007 16:10:56 +0000

Ohh no weight loss… I have stuck to my diet. No sweets or soda (my downfalls) no lbs gone. Oh well I’m still sticking to this. Somedays it so hard.

Can I blog about anything going on in my life or is this strickly weight loss. Boy sometimes I reeeallly need to blow off steam. But I wont do it here if this is only weight loss issues.

I have a date night with dh tonight and we are going to Fridays for dinner with no childrenit has been so long since we have gone anywhere to eat that doesnt have a drive thru I think i will check out thier menu on line 1st and have my mind made up before we even walk in so that way I can stick to my diet.

I hope everyone has a good day!!!!!!!

Nighttime snacking

cindy246 — Mon, 28 May 2007 15:17:55 +0000

One of my problems is the nighttime snacking. I have a 10 month old son who is teething and he is waking up a couple times at night for a bottle. I always end up snacking at that time too. Does anyone know how I can get pass this or any ideas on something that I can snack on that wont ruin my diet.

Same ole, Same ole

cindy246 — Mon, 28 May 2007 04:09:00 +0000

Nothing new just same as every other day. I lost 3 lbs in the last couple days. I was feeling like giving up (again) until I saw that I lost a few lbs. We just found out my brother in law is going over to Iraq in the next couple days. This will be his 2nd tour over there.

Today is the day

cindy246 — Thu, 24 May 2007 03:33:08 +0000

Today is the day… I am starting my diet. I tried on my swimsuit and yech!! My husband has a family reunion at the end of July at the beach. I want to lose weight before then. I have done ok today. My downfall is sweets. But so far I havent ate any and stuck to what is good for me.